It was her b’day …in fact she never had a surprise b’day party in her entire life . Her friends gave a surprise visit to her place …she blew the candles .. got lots of gifts and was smiling all the way . But no one knew… she was badly missing someone.. someone she loved enough to dedicate her entire life.. the only one till date. She expected just get a call from him to be wished on her b’day. Till 12 o’ clock her eyes were glued to her phone lcd.. she knew he was in town. she just needed a wish. that’s all.
But as the saying goes.. you never get what you wish most in your life.. (for good or bad, i am not going into it)
Ok where i was..mm
Yes next morning she tried all means to contact him .. finally got his no. from a mutual friend and called him up.
She sort of repented over what she did ..but she was helpless. she wanted to meet him.. she longed to see him not knowing what she would say .. she was sort of nervous.
Finally it was time for them to meet… they both met at their usual place where they use to meet when were in a ‘relationship’ ( this word seems kindda very fake to me now , anyway !).
Her heart started racing the moment she saw him. They both started walking .. at a distance of 10cms from each other.. they were walking together but not with each other.
She tried to start a casual talk with him but the guy hardly spoke. He replied either in ” YES” OR “NO” .. that was kindda very annoying of him. but still she tried… trying to make the moment light and happy as she knew ..may be it was their only meeting in the coming few yrs or may be the last.
She sort of felt in love with him again inspite of him being trying to be rude as much as possible. Her urge for talking to him since long made her love him more . In a way she was crying from within while with him.
She loved him like she always did .. even more but she can’t express.. can’t expect to be loved.
They were tired of walking and needed a place to sit and the only place nearby was a park.
Initially the girl hesitated from putting this idea of going to a park as they were no more girlfriends-boyfriends and these days park is meant to be girlfriends-boyfriends only.
anyway .. finally they went inside and sat together on a cement bench.. at pretty much distance from each other and in a way so that she can look straight into his eyes.
She was still nervous.. as if her feelings are visible from her face .. she was really nervous. To avoid it or to say to make the situation lighter .. she started talking about her college life , family, future (career) plans etcetera only but to avoid the topic ‘ love’ .. at the moment it really made her feel uncomfortable .
Then silence for another few mins cause the boy was fully maintaining his rude behavior.
Then she offered him ‘ Dairy milk’ which she had in her bag. She didn’t have it because she expected the guy to make her feed from his own hand but he didn’t ( very well expected !)
Then silence again.
She was sort of bored sitting there. They both started walking and stopped at a point . It was her favourite place in the park. Over the bridge right in front of the moon. It was a beautiful romantic view from there. They both stood there maintaining their usual distance from each other unlike others in the park.
She was nervous .. more nervous.. her heart was racing… she didn’t knew why.
Tring~ Tring .. her mom called up.. she was talking to her mom and then suddenly she felt something very soothing .. she felt heavenly .. his hand was on hers holding the railings of the bridge. She started stammering on the phone.
Then she kept the phone not knowing what she answered.
Her eyes were filled with tears.. as if she got something for which she waited so long… just by his touch. He tried to remove her hands but she held his fingers tightly.. she wanted that moment to pause .. she felt like in heaven .. Yes! she loved him madly.
The distance between them vanished .. they were now standing close to each other ..with silence on their lips.
her heart felt heavy..she felt a lump in her throat.. she couldn’t speak.. she didn’t want to speak. she was happy …enjoyed every second of it.. as if all her pain vanished by his touch.
Finally she said quietly ” … I love you ! ”
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Now it was time for her to go home.
They both took a hand rickshaw only to spend some more time together sitting close to each other.
It was dark.. he was holding her hand playfully.. they both felt damn romantic.. but they both knew… it was temporary.. everything was over between them.
She had tears again in her eyes .. she couldn’t stop herself. she bend her head… closed her eyes for 5 seconds.. and then gave him a small peck on his cheeks whispering in his ears ‘ i love you.. i will love you always’
He kissed on her hand and said ‘ forget me ! i am not good for you’.. not knowing he was the only existence which made her feel complete in this world.
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